Death is a phenomenon that instills fear in people, because no one knows what happens after death, and death is often linked to pain.
First Encounter
The first time she came across a patient who experienced being out-of-body was when she was an intern after graduating from medical school. She met a patient named Samuel who was refusing surgery to fix his twisted bowel.His reason? He had unpleasant memories of his last surgery. Not the recovery after the surgery; the part when he was under anesthesia.
This statement struck Bellg as odd since patients are put under anesthesia for surgery. But Samuel confirmed that he didn’t feel pain—he just saw it all happen—and he wasn’t about to witness his body opened up again. Unfortunately, Samuel died of this illness.
This kind of experience can’t be explained by science and was considered taboo in the medical world, but Bellg confirmed through Samuel’s medical record that he did not experience physiological distress during his last surgery, meaning he couldn’t have possibly have been awake for the process. It had to have been an out-of-body experience which Bellg sometimes refers to as the consciousness phenomenon, though she hadn’t known what it was at the time.
‘I Started Floating Up’
Kyle was an athletic young man who ran into some trouble while he was parasailing. According to Kyle, he was having a good time when he saw two bikini clad women on a boat.“I was having a good time, when I noticed these two babes hanging out on a boat. I caught some wind. And I started floating up. And I thought, this is great. I’ve never been this high before. And then I happened to look down and see this guy falling down toward the water.”
The next thing Kyle knew, he was lying on a boat, looking up at the two women.
What Kyle didn’t know at the time was that as he was watching the women, he had drifted near some utility wires and was tangled in the wires before falling into the water. He entered cardiac arrest and was drowning. Fortunately, one of the women on the boat was a nurse and she was able to perform CPR and saved his life.
The guy that Kyle saw falling was himself, and he recognized that. “I am not afraid to die, especially if it means diving headfirst into a bunch of bikini clad women,” he told medical staff afterwards.
There was another patient who saw outside of his body after suffering from a cardiac arrest. Howard was a heavy drinker and was going through withdrawal. Heavy drinkers are more vulnerable to cardiac arrests due to low magnesium levels in the blood. When he woke up days after being resuscitated, his ventilator was removed and he was finally able to talk.
Becoming Aware
With these three cases of out of body experiences, Bellg was intrigued and she began to seek out these stories from patients. She went with a rather neutral question: “Did anything unusual happen when you died?”She also observed that the more she sought out these accounts, the more patients were willing to share these experiences with her unsolicited.
A Transformation
Having an out of body experience is transformative. One patient that Bellg met, Chester, had four confirmed cardiac arrests. He realized after this first one that being in that state allowed him to go out of his body, and so he let it happen again and again.After recovering, he shared that he had gained a sense of hearing that spanned beyond the normal distance and this was stronger with people with whom he shared a stronger heart connection with.
His sight had improved as well. After a cardiac arrest, Chester was free from him glasses and his hearing aids. Bellg clarified here that this return to youth only lasted around three to four weeks, but it inspired Chester and his family to become more inclined towards spirituality.
Being Unaware
Carol was suffering from septic shock and kidney damage. When someone is recovering from kidney damage, they tend to urinate a lot. When Carol was disconnected from the ventilator, she described how she had tried telling the nurse that she needed to use the restroom but was ignored.“I had to go to the bathroom. I kept trying to tell the nurse I had to go to the bathroom. And she just ignored me.”
“She would just pretend like she didn’t hear me. When she turned around and listened to me with her stethoscope, she was just this far from my face. I said ‘Lady, I have to go to the bathroom.’ And she ignored me,” Carol recalled.
She decided to find the bathroom herself and exited her room and out of the ICU (through the hydraulic door) but was unable to find a bathroom and, in frustration, decided to go back to her room.
“Fine. I‘ll just go back to bed. I’ll use the bathroom and they'll have to clean it up. That’s what they get for ignoring me,” said Carol.
Healing as a Family
When a loved one speaks of having out of body experiences, how should we react?Helen and her kids came to see Bellg one day. Helen was in a car accident and she was stuck in her car. Yet, she told the story of getting out of her car and walking around to check on other people involved in the accident. When she heard sirens, she returned to her car to see herself unconscious and trapped in her car.
At the appointment, Helen’s children wanted Bellg to tell their mother that there was no way she was walking around at the accident scene with broken ankles.
It can be difficult to have a profound experience one can’t share with loved ones.
Conversing With Cancer
These consciousness phenomenon did not only occur in the moment of an accident or cardiac arrest.Cancer’s unpredictability makes it scary. But Dr. Bellg spoke to a patient, Warren, who was able to see his cancer even before he was diagnosed of it.
Warren drew the image he saw. He went to his doctor who fortunately agreed to give him a check up for cancer and found a mass in his chest. It turned out to be lung cancer. While going over the CAT scan, he showed the doctor his drawing—the image on the CAT scan and the image Warren drew had an eerie similarity.
Warren realized from this experience that if he could see and talk to his cancer, he had a degree of control over it.
Societal Acceptance
These experiences cannot be fully explained by science—at least not yet. So quite often people don’t dare to believe or even listen to patients who need an outlet and someone to believe them.A belief in the divine is universal. So why is an out of body experience, a connection to the other side, so unbelievable?
Bellg has published a book “Near Death in the ICU” and publishing it made her nervous. Since its publication, it has helped opened up this topic for discussion among medical professionals. A fellow doctor approached Bellg and shared his own out of body experience—drowning and seeing his own body from above. He had never felt comfortable talking about it until after reading Bellg’s book.
“So as we move forward, all of us, the invitation is to be continually critical to understand the phenomenon, but to have an open heart to the possibility that the near-death experience, the out-of-body experience due to severe physical stress, and everything else we have yet to learn about, is all possible. Because we don’t know the whole story yet,” Bellg said.