‘I Conquered My Fear,’ Says White Paper Revolution Participant

She does not regret joining the protest despite the possible arrest upon her return to Beijing

Ms. Shi, a participant in the White Paper Movement in Beijing, China, spoke to NTD in Los Angeles on April 25, 2023. Shawn Ma/The Epoch Times

A frequent flier between Beijing and Los Angeles put herself in the center of the White Paper Revolution last November—a movement in which protesters across China expressed their dissatisfaction with the communist regime’s Zero-COVID policies and its draconian controls on expression.

Months later, while visiting the United States, Ms. Shi learned that Chinese police were after her. Knowing that returning to China means possible arrest, she said, “I chose to stand up against it, and I don’t regret it.”

Caught Up in Zero-COVID

Shi runs her own business, having previously worked for an international company in Beijing for many years. She was also once a student in the United States.

In 2022, she was trapped in Beijing during the city’s lockdown.

At the time, Beijing’s residents were faced with a dire situation: No outings, no regular activities, restrictions on work—but still the pressures of mortgage payments, bank loans, household bills, and personal business continued.

Once-sweet homes became jails for everyone. From time to time, there messages leaked onto Chinese social media: Many isolated and depressed people were committing suicide.

Life became full of uncertainty, filled with chaos and fear, and especially when “Big Whites“—the white-suited workers sent out to enforce the communist regime’s lockdown, disinfection, and testing policies—were on the streets. Recalling the period when the authorities demanded citizens take nucleic acid tests every three days, Shi told the Chinese-language edition of The Epoch Times that “there was nothing on the streets but people queuing for the test.”

Trapped at home, her only news source was the state media, CCTV, which boasted about that year’s harvest and touted the success of the regime’s policies. Meanwhile, the Chinese economy was actually regressing from the lockdown policies. She said the TV propaganda was “an insult, spiritually and artistically; this humiliation caused my greatest anger.”

Shi was looking for opportunities to express her anger. “I could not stand it anymore,” she said.

The Spontaneous Activist

An apartment fire in Urumqi city, Xinjiang province on Nov. 24, 2022 shocked the entire nation. Unable to escape, at least 10 residents were killed by a fire that broke out in a sealed apartment. Protests erupted throughout the nation against China’s draconian Zero-COVID policy, and were echoed and supported by overseas Chinese.

When Beijing residents initiated their protest three days after the blaze, Shi drove with her friend to a protest site by the Liangma River in the city’s Chaoyang District.

Local traffic was heavy, and a traffic jam ensued. Angry drivers’ honks filled the air. Shi believes that most of the vehicles were on their way to the protest site. The roads remained blocked, however.

Shi and her friend decided to park the car and walk to the protest site. It was after 11 p.m., and protesters were being confronted by the police. Shi found herself right at the center of the protest.

When it was past midnight, more police seemed to arrive, though she couldn’t see the full extent of their formations.

Protesters hold up white sheets of paper in objection to censorship as they march during a protest against China's draconian Zero-COVID measures in Beijing, China, on Nov. 27, 2022. Kevin Frayer/Getty Images

A few men talked to the crowd and led the people in chanting slogans.

“Everyone was emotional, including me. We all joined in on the spur of the moment,” she said. She believes that no one planned the vocal demonstration, and that it happened spontaneously.

The police surrounded the protesters, who were pushed, shoved, and divided into small groups. As the protesters were surrounded and compressed, many people took the chance to leave. At this time, Shi believes that about one-third of the protesters were still at the scene. She almost fell during the pushing and shoving: Her phone fell to the ground, and the screen shattered.

Protesters continued to chant slogans while retreating. Shi and her friend managed to get back to their car and return home.

Shi left Beijing a few days later to visit her daughter in the United States. Soon, however, her family in Beijing received a phone call from the local police—demanding their constant reports of Shi’s whereabouts.

Her identity had been exposed because she forgot to wear a face mask the night of the protest.

Retaliation

After the nationwide White Paper Movement, as expected, the regime retaliated against participants, and at least 100 of them are believed to have been arrested.

Human Rights Watch reported that authorities across the country harassed or detained dozens of participants: primarily students, journalists, and, notably, many women.

Knowing that she’d be faced with arrest if she returns to China, Shi said she does not regret what she did that evening.

“The CCP’s Zero-COVID policy showed that the regime has no will or capability to correct its own mistakes, until you protest against it,” she said.

After the waves of White Paper protests started in November, China’s communist regime announced in Dec. 2022 that it would ease the quarantine restrictions in early 2023.

The lack of freedom of expression was the cause of the CCP’s incompetence and its inability to correct its mistakes, Shi said. “How would they know what you’re thinking if you are not allowed to speak?”

The brutal and extreme Zero-COVID policy made her realize the significance of free speech to human dignity, she said.

Standing up for her own dignity was “the most important decision of my life,” she said, and helped her to conquer her fear.

A government is to serve the people, not rule them, Shi said. “Restricting their freedom and suppressing the people—that’s not what a government is for.”

Yang Yang and Shawn Ma contributed to this report.