At his 25th wedding anniversary, Winnipegger Randy Makinson thought he had it all: a long happy marriage, the joys of children, and a well-paying job fixing race car engines. But soon his wife left him, sending him into a spiral of loneliness and drug addiction that cost him his job and nearly his life.
The good news is that things started to turn around about five years later. He credits it to a faith-based addiction recovery program in Saskatchewan. This is where he’s worked and what he’s dedicated his life to for some 13 years now, after completing the program, having switched from a job rebuilding engines to one helping others rebuild their lives.
“I went to a really dark, really dark time for years,” Makinson told the audience as he shared his story at the Saskatchewan legislature on May 9.
Makinson’s story had a bright beginning.
Unexpectedly, three months later, his wife asked for a divorce.
‘A Deep, Dark Depression’
Makinson fell into a “deep, dark depression” and declined social events with his brothers and sister because he “felt like a third wheel” no matter where he went.But the worse was still to come. At age 50, he tried drugs for the first time.
“I took one long hoot from this pipe. And it took away all the pain, all the sorrow, all the misery, all of the heartache. The only problem is I couldn’t stop chasing that feeling,” he recalled.
“Within a week I was going from $60 a night at the bar to $600 a night for crack cocaine. And over the next two years, this totally destroyed my life,” he said.
“I‘d be doing drugs the moment I got home from work until 7 o’clock in the morning, and then go straight to work. I tried to stay awake. I would go 10 days straight and not sleep five minutes, until my body shut down every time. I was spinning out of control emotionally, physically, and financially.”
That was when Makinson’s family finally intervened.
“They actually thought I had cancer. And my two adult children couldn’t figure out what happened to their dad.”
Five stints at detox centres couldn’t keep him from relapses. His 32-year career rebuilding precision racing engines came to an end, as his shoddy work led to “blow-ups on the race track,” he said.
‘A Miracle or a Coincidence’
Makinson was contemplating suicide one night when he received a call from his sister, Debbie.Debbie said to him: “Is this the legacy you want to leave with your kids? ... There’s a good chance this drug is going to take your life, and your children are going to have to come to your funeral and live with that shame.”
Makinson said the phone call “rocked me to my core.”
Then suddenly, Debbie called back, saying, “I don’t know if this is a miracle or a coincidence.”
As a 51-year-old, Makinson bristled at the idea of going to a program called Teen Challenge, especially in a town 750 kilometres from home. The program’s faith-based aspect was even more of a negative for him. But his sister said the program’s success rate was above 70 percent in 1,000 centres worldwide, and if he was willing to go, she would cover his mortgage payments.
Makinson, whose weight had fallen to 127 pounds by that time, still remembers the day he arrived.
“They were shaking my hand and said they‘d prayed for me in chapel in the morning. And I looked at my sister and said, ’Deb, I think they’re hiding the addicts in the basement. This doesn’t look or act like any of the guys that I did secular programs with.’”
From Rebuilding Engines to Rebuilding Lives
Change came quickly.“I‘d seen the love of God [for] the first time. … My 10th day of the program, I got down on my knees and I asked God to forgive all the things I’d done wrong.”
Makinson’s boss had offered him his old job back if he completed his program. But when Makinson read the Bible story of Abraham leaving his home and possessions, he felt that this was also the path meant for him.
His house sold after 10 days on the market, and the proceeds covered all of his debts.
“I felt like God was saying, ‘I need you to go from rebuilding broken engines to rebuilding broken lives.’”
After Makinson graduated from the program, he stayed on with the Teen Challenge ministry. Then, in 2010, he asked God for a wife.
“It didn’t take longer than 10 days and I would meet my future wife at a Teen Challenge graduation in Saskatoon. … Four months later we got married right on the steps of Teen Challenge.”
“It’s new every day. I get to work with a broken man every single day to speak the gospel into their life—[someone] that needs to know there’s hope, that needs to know there’s a future,” he said.